On my mind.

I'm sitting at the Gartland wall overlooking the river in front of Rob's old house Gartland F1, because this is the only place I can feel the sun.  The day before I turned 19 Rob and I got starbucks and came here.  We sat on the wall and resolved our fight from five days earlier.  For the past couple of days I couldn't figure out why I am so drawn to this spot, other than spending most of the last two months of last year  over here with him.  

I remember now what the fight was about.  It was the first time he told me directly how he felt about me and the first time I was forced to acknowledge my own feelings.  We didn't talk for five days, the longest we had ever gone without talking to each other since we met.  But on May 8 2009 he bought me Starbucks and he took me to this wall and we sat and talked and made up.  

I know why I return here more often than our other haunts.  Here is where he came back to me.  Here is where we found out that we were strongly bonded to each other.  No fight, no distance, no obstacles were going to change this.  I come here now to be with him, to find peace.  I want so bad to feel him around me.  I'm sitting here waiting for him to come back to me.